Our angel sons  / Rea Mom Of Emile De Miranda (Angel Mom )

(((Arlene))) I am so sorry for you loss. I can't even begin to understand your pain. I lost my son Emile to suicide and it can't compare to the senseless loss of you precious son Michael. You are in my prayers and close to my heart. Blessed Be.

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In honor of Father's Day  / Mom

This was in my Angel Mom's news letter this month and I wanted to share it with you all.  The words are so true, Father's feel this pain as well as Mother's do.

 

Men Do Cry

I heard quite often "men don't cry"
Though no one ever told me why
So when I fell and skinned my knee
No one came to comfort me.

And when some bully boy at school
Would pull a prank so mean and cruel
I'd quickly learn to turn and quip
"It doesn't hurt" and bite my lip.

So as I grew to reasoned years
I learned to stifle any tears.
Though "Be a big boy" it began
Quite soon I learned to "Be a man."

And I could play that stoic role
While storm and tempest wracked my soul.
No pain nor setback could there be
Could wrest one single tear from me.

Then one long night I stood nearby
And helplessly watched my son die.
And quickly found to my surprise
That all the tearless talk was lies.

And still I cry and have no shame
I can not play that "big boy" game.
And openly without remorse
I let my sorrow take its course.

So those of you who can't abide
A man you've seen who's often cried
Reach out to him with all your heart
As one whose life's been torn apart.

For men do cry when they can see
Their loss of immortality.
And tears will come in endless streams
When mindless fate destroys their dreams.

Author Unknown

Happy Father's Dad I love you!

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Thinking of you and your angel.  / Carolyn Le (angelmom friend )
My thoughts and prayers are with you knowing you miss your angel son.

God Bless,Carolyn

www.kimlan-le.memory-of.com
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God bless you - from Glenna, Mom to Angel Brendan  / Glenna Hard (friend of Angel Mom )

May God bless you and bring peace to your hearts.  May your Angel Michael wrap you in the wings of his love.

 

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A beautiful poem  / Mom

Loss of a Child (author unknown)

The moment that I knew you had died,
My heart split in two,
The one side filled with memories,
The other died with you.

I often lay awake at night,
When the world is fast asleep,
And take a walk down memory lane,
With tears upon my cheek.

Remembering you is easy,
I do it every day,
But missing you is a heartache,
That never goes away.

I hold you tightly within my heart,
And there you will remain,
Life has gone on without you,
But it never will be the same.

For those who still have their children,
Treat them with tender care,
You will never know the
emptiness,
As when you turn and they are not there.

Don't tell me that you understand,
don't tell me that you know.
Don't tell me that I will survive,
How I will surely grow.

Don't tell me this is just a test,
That I am truly blessed.
That I am chosen for the task,
Apart from all the rest.

Don't come at me with answers
That can only come from me,
Don't tell me how my grief will pass,
That I will soon be free.

Don't stand in pious judgment
Of the bonds I must untie,
Don't tell me how to grieve,
Don't tell me when to cry.

Accept me in my ups and downs,
I need someone to share,
Just hold my hand and let me cry,
And say, "My friend, I care."

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Missing my angel  / Mom Who Loves You For Ever

My ANGEL

I miss your beautiful brown eyes, so full of life
your joyous laughter, so wonderful to hear
your beautiful boyish smile, oh how I knew when you 
were up to something
your warm and heartfelt embraces and
your loving hugs and kisses 
You had a tremendous amount of love in your heart, 
for your family especially Bryanna
and tried to show it the best you could 
So when you left us, it tore us apart.
you brought so much happiness in our lives, 
even in times of trouble and in times of pain,
there was never a question that the love remaind 
No more pain for you now,
but lots of pain for those of us still here 
now your in heaven, and I hope to see you soon. 

With all my love, for always, 
Mom

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This is my song for Michael. If only I had one more day.  / Danielle Clugston (Friend)


Last night I had a crazy dream
A wish was granted just for me
It could be for anything
I didn't ask for money
Or a mansion in Malibu
I simply wished, for one more day with you

One more day
One more time
One more sunset, maybe I'd be satisfied
But then again
I know what it would do
Leave me wishing still, for one more day with you

First thing I'd do, is pray for time to crawl
Then I'd unplug the telephone
And keep the TV off
I'd hold you every second
Say a million I love you's
That's what I'd do, with one more day with you 

Leave me wishing still, for one more day
Leave me wishing still, for one more day



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New Year Wishes  / Mom

Ten
10 more minutes until the new year
And one more year farther away...Father away from the memories I hold so dear...
Please, God...
Im so afraid I will forget...please help me remember....year after year. 


Nine
9 more minutes until the new year...
And one more year farther along...farther along my journey of grief...I thought I walked alone...
Please, God...
Continue to walk with me....as no roads are walked alone...you are always with me...until I also return home. 


Eight
8 more minutes until the new year...
A new year to help others realize....that grief does not have a timeline...and mine it not too long...
Please, God...
Help others to understand...that I am normal....and that my grief is so stong...because my love was so strong. 


Seven 
7 more minutes until the new year...
A year that I pray...my friends and family will not avoid my pain or look the other way...
Please, God...
When tears form in my eyes...Help my friends and family find the right words to say. 


Six
6 more minutes until the new year...
A year...that brings hope that others will not forget...that they understand my pain when I call them late at night.
Please, God...
Bless my family in the new year...and when there is darkness...shine Your loving light. 


Five
5 more minutes until the new year...
A new year..for me to reach out to others who are grieving....and help them along this road...
Please, God...
Guide me in the new year...and grant me strength and courage to help lighten anothers load. 


Four
4 more minutes until the new year...
As I take this time to thank You for the friends I hold so dear....who listen and help me when I fall....
Please, God...
Help remind others....that saying something... Is better than saying nothing at all. 


Three
3 more minutes until the new year...
A new year to carry on the memory of our beloved son...
Please, God...
Encircle us in your love.....and grant us peace. 


Two
2 more minutes until the new year...
And thank You God for loving me...from Heaven above....where my loved one is finally free...
Please, God...
On This New Years Eve...send my love...up above...as always...from me. 


One
1 more minute until the new year...
Whether I am ready or not...a new year is nearly here....
Please, God...
Grant me the strength, courage, and peace to walk through the new year...with a little less fear. 


Wishing family and friends  peaceful days and beautiful memories in the new year. God bless you all 

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"If tomorrow starts without me,  / Tim An Misti Loves U. And Misses U. So Much (cousin)
"If tomorrow starts without me,
And I'm not there to see,
If the sun should rise and find your eyes
all filled with tears for me;

I wish so much you wouldn't cry
the way you did today,
While thinking of the many things,
We didn't get to say.

I know how much you love me,
As much as I love you,
And each time that you think of me,
I know you'll miss me too;

But when tomorrow starts without me,
Please try to understand,
that an angel came and called my name,
And took me by the hand,

And said my place was ready,
In heaven far above,
And that I'd have to leave behind
all those I dearly love.

But as I turned to walk away,
A tear fell from my eye,
For all my life, I'd always thought,
I didn't want to die.

I had so much to live for,
So much left yet to do,
it seemed almost impossible,
that I was leaving you.

I thought of all the yesterdays,
The good ones and the bad,
I thought of all that we shared,
And all the fun we had.

If I could relive yesterday,
Just even for a while,
I'd say good-bye and kiss you
and maybe see you smile.

But then I fully realized,
That this could never be,
For emptiness and memories,
would take the place of me.

And when I thought of worldly things,
I might miss some tomorrow,
I thought of you, and when I did,
My heart was filled with sorrow.

But when I walked through heaven's gates,
I felt so much at home.
When God looked down and smiled at me,
> From His great golden throne,

He said, "This is eternity,
And all I've promised you."
Today your life on earth is past,
but here life starts anew.

I promise no tomorrow,
But today will always last,
and since each day is the same way,
There's no longing for the past.

So when tomorrow starts without me,
don't think we're far apart,
For every time you think of me,
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Thinking Of You  / Judi Walker (Mom's friend )
I am remembering Michael with all of you today. I did not know him on this earth, but have come to know and love him though Arlene. I share your pain and have you all in my thoughts and prayers. Michael lives on through the memories he has left behind....... Close

Merry Christmas Michael  / Kerryann Crabtree (cousin)

Well hello there cousin, i was just wanting to stop by and tell you i luv you and miss you bunches its Christmas time again and you know what that mean Christmas partys and all that fun gift exchange but thats not how its working out this year its sad this is the first christams with out a party and i dont think i know how to handle it christmas time id about spending time with family at least we will have you candle lighting on sunday so i will be able to spend some time with the fam i just miss them all so much it seams like i go months with out seeing them some times and family is my #1 it sucks only seeing them durring the holidays....i also wanted to thank you for the awsome snow lastnight at the hot springs ands for getting me home safe i hope you watch over everyone this holiday seson and keep us all safe and give grandma a big kiss and hug for me tell her i miss her a bunch and think of her everyday.... i know you see how big baby michael is getting his birthday is comming up its amazing how long its been and still it hurts like it happened yesterday well i luv you and miss you

XOXOXOXOX
Kerryann

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Merry Christmas From Heaven (Revised)  / Mom


MERRY CHRISTMAS FROM HEAVEN

I still hear the songs
I still see the lights
I still feel your love
on cold wintery nights

I still share your hopes
and all of your cares
I'll even remind you
to please say your prayers

I just want to tell you
you still make me proud
You stand head and shoulders
above all the crowd

Keep trying each moment
to stay in His grace
I came here before you
to help set your place

You don't have to be
perfect all of the time
He forgives you the slip
If you continue the climb

To my family and friends
please be thankful today
I'm still close beside you
in a new special way

I love you all dearly
now don't share a tear
Cause I'm spending my
Christmas with Jesus this year
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PRECIOUS ANGEL MICHAEL AND YOUR LOVED ONES  / ROSE GRMA TO ANGEL BRITTANY SYFERT

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Oh so fitting  / Mom
The Year Before Last
by Unknown

The holiday season is approaching,
and with it comes the New Year.
Although for me time passes slowly,
New Year's Day will ring in quickly.

I dread this New Year's Day
because they will look at me
in a terribly strange way
when I get misty-eyed,
and talk about something you had done.

After you first left me,
they reasoned when I cried,
"He's only been gone a few months."
And I would catch that look of
understanding in their eyes,
and found some comfort that they knew.

But on last New Year's Day,
my first thought upon awakening was,
Oh God, my son died last year,
not just a few months ago, not even this year,
but last year.
He will never live in this year.

They didn't understand, they didn't reason,
that last year, for me, the loss was still new.
They thought, "It happened last year,
so long ago, why does she still cry?"
I could see it in their eyes.

This New Year's Day, will it be different?
Will my first thought upon awakening be,
Oh God, my son died the year before last,
not a few months ago, not this year or even last year,
but the year before last?
He will never live in this year.

Will they even listen, should I not look them
in the eyes, for fear that I shall see,
"Why is she still crying? It happened so long ago.
It was the year before last."

Those words that we use
to describe the passage of time,
a few months, this year,
last year, the year before last.
They don't know that time stands still for me.

Will they understand that's why I cry?
Don't they know
my son just died ...
the year before last?
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PRECIOUS MICHAEL AND YOUR FAMILY  / ROSE GRMA TO ANGEL BRITTANY SYFERT

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Written by an angel mom friend, her words hold so true  / Mom
Listen very carefully 
Do not make a sound 
Those that went to heaven 
are certainly around 
 
They send messages of hope 
To lighten up our heart 
They are closer than we realize 
We are not so far apart 
 
They know we think about them 
as our eyes fill up with tears 
They know we miss them deeply 
Know how difficult the years 
 
They try hard to make it better 
Sending messages of hope 
As we make it through another day 
and somehow try to cope 
 
Keep in mind that they are with us 
Loving you... loving me 
As they wrap their light around us 
trying hard to set us free 
 
They send messages of hope 
Each and every day 
 
Listen very carefully... 
They may send you one today
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PRECIOUS MICHAEL,  / ROSE GRMA TO ANGEL BRITTANY SYFERT (FRIEND)

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Ask a person.....  / Aunt Gloria

To realize the value of a sister: Ask someone who doesn't have one.
To realize the value of ten years: Ask a newly divorced couple.
To realize the value of four years: Ask a graduate.
To realize the value of one year: Ask a student who failed a final exam.
To realize the value of nine months: Ask a mother who has given birth to a stillborn.
To realize the value of one month: Ask a mother who has given birth to a premature baby.
To realize the value of one week: Ask the editor of a weekly newspaper.
To realize the value of one minute: Ask a person who has missed the train, bus or plane.
To realize the value of one second: Ask a person who survived an accident.

TIME WAITS FOR NO ONE!

Treasure every moment you have. You will treasure it even more when you can share it with someone special.
To realize the value of a friend or family member: Lose one!
Peace, love and prosperity to all! Remember to hold on tight to the ones you love!

                                                                 AUTHOR            UNKNOWN

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Hating it, but asking for help right now  / Arlene

Many of you have said time and time again "if you need me , just call" well, I need a good cry anyone interested in listening?  Thinking about the holidays and trying to comprehend that it's  been almost three years is killing me! If you really love me, and I believe you do, if you really want to help me, here is what I need from you. Sit down beside me, reach out and take my hand, Say "I love you and I want to understand." Just hold my hand and listen that's all you need to do, And if by chance I shed a tear, it's alright if you do to.  I hope I haven't sucked you all dry, I just need to talk about him for awhile.  I love you all.


Arlene
Angel Michael's Mom
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PRECIOUS MICHAEL,  / ROSE GRMA TO ANGEL BRITTANY SYFERT (ANGEL FRIEND )

SENDING LOTS OF LOVE TO YOU AND YOUR LOVED ONES,

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